the place where i live now has given the most appropriate name of "The Oracle" to google.... lol

lala-land

hassles, headaches and hangovers. collecting all the left overs. killing time but not in front of Tok. wake up kat we're not in that plot....

Today (is more than just today)

my grandma used to sing this to me.... who the hell is john denver??? o.O


Today, while the blossoms still cling to the vine
Ill taste your strawberries, Ill drink your sweet wine
A million tomorrows shall all pass away
Ere I forget all the joy that is mine, Today

Ill be a dandy, and Ill be a rover
Youll know who I am by the songs that I sing
Ill feast at your table, Ill sleep in your clover
Who cares what the morrow shall bring

Today, while the blossoms still cling to the vine
Ill taste your strawberries, Ill drink your sweet wine
A million tomorrows shall all pass away
Ere I forget all the joy that is mine, Today

I cant be contented with yesterdays glory
I cant live on promises winter to spring
Today is my moment, now is my story
Ill laugh and Ill cry and Ill sing

Today, while the blossoms still cling to the vine
Ill taste your strawberries, Ill drink your sweet wine
A million tomorrows shall all pass away
Ere I forget all the joy that is mine, Today

Today, while the blossoms still cling to the vine
Ill taste your strawberries, Ill drink your sweet wine
A million tomorrows shall all pass away
Ere I forget all the joy that is mine, Today

Some Know Ft. Jake Phillips by Danger James

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If I Were A Boy lyrics
Songwriters: Carlson, Britney; Gad, Toby; Knowles, Beyonce;

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/b/beyonce-lyrics/if-i-were-a-boy-lyrics.html ]

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a bo

Nothings Right

entourage
rain-cloud
Hell
tweakerville

a Facebook Status started it All

so for anyone out there asking:
yeah, I'm struggling, juggling my life day to day. living it right from pay to pay. my play is work and I work to get paid. Don't wish to get laid. But im lonely and use the local sound to soothe me. How do i prove to myself that im not just some groupie. The more i put myself out there the less i feel my beauty. The more i love the music the less i love the person. The more i amend myself the more my world worsens. if i keep on in this shit my spirit will never find Emerson. i barely have time to breathe not to mention sleep. finally found a way out of negativity and the company i keep. i want to find my rightful place, for that i still seek. im living with the meek... and the dull. From all over the city i still need to haul. but i barely have the time so im beating on my skull. i need to see it all come together and fit into light. so i can escape my heart's dark hole. but It's seems that more than me my lovers play their part. what does the world care if everyday i produce them art? only few feel my mark, it's not like im making a million postcards. But hey what can i say. im not just dwindling away. Im proud of how sober i still stay while i keep my habits at bay. Funny part is this is all in response to "What's on your mind?". Then all of this dribble kept pouring out behind. and i couldn't find the right lines... to make it fit in the status box. and now i feel like I'm a chatter box. but this is the first time I triumphed over mental blocks despite all these stupid tick-tock clocks. and now the awaited aftershocks....

lost poem=lost cause

we're only young once, twice, thrice times; thats our charms
wearing our emotions on our emotions on our arms
you think we havent the brains-
i'll let you think it. take no blames
going along following: me thinks it

what love from above or below
what love when hate we all show
what kindness; when blindness did find us
and not seeing is all we know

we are you once, twice and again
time holds nothing against our sin
where to start when your at the end
think of unbroken rules: how they can bend
not today but maybe tomorrow well send
for everyone's hearts together to blend

a little too deep?

her face faked caked with flakey make up no need to sleep so no need to wake up but she can suite up when suited to do telling herself "i can be just like you" but her fresh aint new and all her old is through asking me what to do "give me a clue" 
the care i take it seems so fake  make no mistake i would want it about any other way 
theres a rainbow in the sky all the time- because she's high up there flying
feeling fine in her mind thats fine 
and the fines keep piling high with her denies as time flys right on by the time to rewind 
i wait for her replies and for the fairy dusted lies and its not like im the only one that trusts my own eyes 
an argument for arguments sake 
her habits: sentimental sediments i take 
what's a network when the mother's never on board 
i can't afford to let her hoard anymore of what i adored 
this isn't all because i was just ignored 
negligence prevents me to have to payin rents 






DONT LOOK... A LITTLE TOO DEEP!!

THIS ONE SEEMS EVIL TO PUT ONLINE... but i might be a lil evil ^o.o^

Katrina,
   your my motivation towards an actually deicent life. We tried at first but mercy cried. I got put away, and you made your dash, but I am out now tryin to gather the trash. Im set up now to get you back. and take care of you in the spots that i lacked. feed, clothe you. a roof over your head. I promise this time ill do my best, no bullshit just crazy old kat -n- matt. Only this time we aint pulling no crazy shit out this hat. our relationship will thrive in magical ways. Feeling satisfied that we work and play. But only in moderation cause our goals will not sway. you will accomplish the most incredible things. With a solid man there cleaning your wings.....  

if only, if only

suburbain gypsy

Secet lives of suburbian gypsys
sweet sullen melody of soft secret snipsies
wandering wearily, watching the waves
crushing crumbled on curves and the caves
dryed sress-messed Dirt devil sweeping the storm

desserted on an in-land layed under the warm

arivaca poems= ....very personal...

@ first you could have said dirt was crack

& it didnt matter I still would have had your back

There was a day we lost control & jumped a fence

I watched u cry for your mother's amence

you grabbed hold of my wrist (asked)

if i knew what this means

like secrets could hide harder

than it all seems

i told you all the things

that i had accured in my dreams

shortly after we undressed

you said your body is a fortress

& when you allowed me access

we became an imortal mess

i stared to type this went for your page and you finally talked to me.... finally. even if this ends up being a trap and least i got you to say hi just this once. I am pathetically in love with you. =[ 

arivaca poems= gibbery mush.

from the begining i dreamt of winning but to get there i refrained from sining. took in and that sent me behind. the others left in that better line far back in my mind. i dreamt of fast forward and remembered rewind. stop. paause; thinak and listen. and maybe hit play. thrice in a while i remember those days. i was bold, a bit brilliant in all my odd ways. When introduced to the cultral haze, it turned me round on to this ethical maze. all roads i've been blazin, People's ways i've been gazin. In no place i've been stayin. With mistakes; i constantly weight in cuz i make them.