So I have 5 days to wait for the day i have waited for for years: my little brother will be graduating and getting out (i believe). But there is so much more going on right now. I have been trying to make music, working 5 days out of 7 at a place of craziness and political hushness, and living in a artist and musicians community.
but as of right now i have no one to share my hopes and dreams with. I broke up with my boyfriend. I feel like a piece of meat dangling virtually (facebook) in front of a pack of wild dogs. I have almost no material possessions except what i wear, the stuff i used to make art and tons and tons of books. I keep sleeping on couches... of people I trust, while trying to figure out where i want to live. I have quiet a few options but IT SO HARD TO SEE BEYOND my brother's release.
i wish i could just feel as loved as the love i keep pushing out in all directions.....
how long can i selflessly love.....
and when i can i feel that in return?......
