I just want to succeed

Just found out -just now I'm still broke-n somehow

I buckled at the knees in dust sunken bow

Bound to honor something stronger feel that pow-

Er.. I'm the her in gentlemen only love I sent to them

Again I pray for the day so they will now that when

Bow to round roll tho I don't like to show a bend

Earth leaks laughs it's daft dull-y play pretend

Wish I was mended could condemn  what's in my head

Some reads what's red or in between instead

By and by Ill only lie or bow into bed

Cry that cry but I'm alive mine the cred

I just want to succeed 

I don't got the greed

I don't want to bleed

I'm so not a fiend 

I just need to feed me 

I just want to succeed 

I still see a loser when I'm looking in the mirror

I think I'm winning but what's won is not so clear

My innocence has kept me a darling dear

I can pretend not to be in startling fear

Success can't pass that test, I do my best

But just leave a mess, a scattered nest

A tattered bless- ing loving how I lose I am confess

-ing. That's my thing! 

Maybe I'm still flirting with my real life inside preteen

And the meaning of everything in her dreams

And dealing with her inner mean queen 

And before long you hear where have u been?

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