katita
9.30.2011
angel-deas
angel by ~litu on deviantART
Angel by ~ramhay on deviantART
angel by ~greenfroggies on deviantART
Angel 01 by ~Trixis on deviantART
robo-deas!!!!!
Sexy Robot by ~taghuso on deviantART
Robot jealousy by ~geng1603 on deviantART
Robot Girl by ~Great-OHARU on deviantART
Pink Robot by ~YummyKitty on deviantART
Robot Girl by ~Christian-Lee on deviantART
Robot Girl by ~Nimiaka on deviantART
- Sexy Robot 011 - by =FelipeChoque on deviantART
Robot- sketch on photoshop by ~Kawanai on deviantART
9.29.2011
Its what you feel.
there's always a light at the end of the tunnel
not if your digging a hole
how can i feel so empty
if there is part of you in my soul
if my shovel was a tad bit sleeker
if I could shove just a little bit deeper
thats what happens when you move a mountain
and thats what i've been countin-
on and your moving to slow or moving to fast
I dont want something that cant last
but what do i know and what do i show?
and how bout how i bask and never do i really ask
but i think about you
expectually in my booze but how can i choose
between time and being true
whats thru is thru
who is news is news
Im just trying not to loose
or trying to confuse
attempting not to loose you thru these cues and dues
....but the more i amend myself the more my world worsens....
"It makes me feel better than hitting my head with a shoe
i keep rolling the dice and idk why i loose
everything and its nothing it's broke
i put down everything and get nothing im broke...
this aint russian rullete
this is life and its A JOKE
(something about sexy and dirty) "
-PRESTON
not if your digging a hole
how can i feel so empty
if there is part of you in my soul
if my shovel was a tad bit sleeker
if I could shove just a little bit deeper
thats what happens when you move a mountain
and thats what i've been countin-
on and your moving to slow or moving to fast
I dont want something that cant last
but what do i know and what do i show?
and how bout how i bask and never do i really ask
but i think about you
expectually in my booze but how can i choose
between time and being true
whats thru is thru
who is news is news
Im just trying not to loose
or trying to confuse
attempting not to loose you thru these cues and dues
....but the more i amend myself the more my world worsens....
"It makes me feel better than hitting my head with a shoe
i keep rolling the dice and idk why i loose
everything and its nothing it's broke
i put down everything and get nothing im broke...
this aint russian rullete
this is life and its A JOKE
(something about sexy and dirty) "
-PRESTON
hypocrite
hypocrite and a bit of a bitch, but i feel love in-spite of it... and here's the niche I'm believing all her bullshit
but who's the boss
but who's the boss
From crop (not start) to finish one pic on this mac takes almost 10 minutes!
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From crop (not start) to finish one pic on this mac takes almost 10 minutes!
{NOT TO MENTION THE 5 MINUTES TO UPLOAD IT TO THE SEVR}
in total OVER15 minutes for ONE picture and its running good today!!
compared to this on another:
23 minutes for 14 pictures thats only 1.642 minutes per picture.... LOL
AND I JUST CRASHED GIMP A G A I N!!!!! stupid computers a waste of my time energy and creativity!!!
nakedness
last night i dreamt of my aunts trailer sinking... maybe the ice caps will melt and there will be polar bears in Arivaca. Also every time i sleep naked i have these weird dreams of people taking pictures of me and its hard to stay asleep.
9.28.2011
Live Note taking!!!!!!!
I'm not a guitarist or a bassists but i know that this was a combat of notes or chords and their eyes the strategists. sound combat. Tonight's Jam Session/ Practice/ Audition of ALWAYS ENSLAVED made me have a new appreciaction for metal or whatever that is that they play... how's that for vague journalism.... these guys rock
murderholic....a perfect title for black death metal behemoth... do you think itds funny if think of that we're from a little town. expressing all kinds of genres... confussed when i asked them their genre... they know how to react with each other. others standing around smiling as the hit it "right on"... im not sure how to explain it better than lingo.
Preston joins in in the lobby of the ARTFARE building (also known as the Arizona Hotel)... I should start Representing them... This has now become a experimental swirl of music unknown to me except maybe some hard drugs and Jerry Garcia!!!!!!!!
21st Oct. the ROCK the battle of the bands
murderholic....a perfect title for black death metal behemoth... do you think itds funny if think of that we're from a little town. expressing all kinds of genres... confussed when i asked them their genre... they know how to react with each other. others standing around smiling as the hit it "right on"... im not sure how to explain it better than lingo.
Preston joins in in the lobby of the ARTFARE building (also known as the Arizona Hotel)... I should start Representing them... This has now become a experimental swirl of music unknown to me except maybe some hard drugs and Jerry Garcia!!!!!!!!
21st Oct. the ROCK the battle of the bands
if you can't say something nice
should i be nice should i be candid Should i say it how i planned it?
should i keep on with this habbit of hard bars with pointed darts
should i be sweet or should i be cunning if i get done with all this duming
i could really be quite stunning if i stop all this ruthless running
why not say it if its mean if your reading in between
why not say it if its mean if your reading in between
the things i say not what i mean you could be keen
and shake off what you've seen, your angry your a fiend
for the make believe world your reality left unfurled
say it nice pay the price roll some dice and loose
you loser why don't you choose if u say u have your blues
are not your just yellow your a coward like othello
your just jealous and insecure and my words you hate are ones too pure
and all your hate is just a lure
If you don't have nothing nice say... but i didn't say it
i spray it... play it... pray with it
i wouldn't say them to your face i wont put you in your place
and just in case you think I'm scared your just unprepared
to have all your self completely barred
if i cared none of these words would not be dared
and shake off what you've seen, your angry your a fiend
for the make believe world your reality left unfurled
say it nice pay the price roll some dice and loose
you loser why don't you choose if u say u have your blues
are not your just yellow your a coward like othello
your just jealous and insecure and my words you hate are ones too pure
and all your hate is just a lure
If you don't have nothing nice say... but i didn't say it
i spray it... play it... pray with it
i wouldn't say them to your face i wont put you in your place
and just in case you think I'm scared your just unprepared
to have all your self completely barred
if i cared none of these words would not be dared
break it down
i am:
$1,000/month =$250/week=$35.71(4285)/day
$50=20% of my weeks pay
BUT NONE OF THIS MATTERS IF I WORK SALARY!
Minimum wage as of today= $7.35
my pay per hour= $1.49
(and although i get 10% commission i have to put ALL these rugs up before i can market them... this will take months. At least two...)
EVIL EVIL PEOPLE!!!!!!!!
my expenses: $125-$100/week just for rent
$60 for food
$14 for bus fare
$15 for laundry
totaling= $214
not to mention:
$50/month for my cell phone
and hygiene products, and random expenses......
Leaving me with nothing left over to save up for a computer in which i desperatley need!!
All of this is important because I wasn't in work for three days straight one day I called off, the next we where closed and the day afterward i was extremely ill (NOT HUNG OVER.... I come into work and throw up in the toilet there when I am hung over). If you do the math, (which I should have to) even if i had only worked three days it would equal 107$. Im not a day laborer, If i wanted this crap I would still be at Mcdonalds (working the same hours and getting paid about the same without feeling this low about myself and my work)
When i was first hired I was working 15 hours a week and when the schedule changed I figured it was only fair for a salary job. Then i worked as hard as I could only to get critiqued on work. My boss hadn't even seen the site yet but, still asked for me to (not double but) triple my work load.
So i tried to maneuver around his slow ass computer and i learned stupid gimp. I finally was able to go from 10 a day to 20, best attempt. Attempt two was me buying (from the little bit of extra money i had) a jump drive and taking my work home with me. My work went at least 4 times faster, until i recognized one of the rugs and i started balling my eyes out because i had already cropped these pictures. Not only that but the folder was named incorrectly leading me to believe that I had copied the same pictures into a different folder. So even though i was making great progress it was only a step backwards.
Now all i can do is grit my teeth and work for people that don't appreciate me and won't pay me (even though we had an agreement... and i quote "I'll pay $1,000/ month so you can eat and stuff". Way to make your employee skinny and homeless) Im not extremely worried about the effects of not having the rent money and my friends and mother will make sure I'm fed but I don't feel I have any kind of job security at all. I am looking for a second job as we speek and am heading over to DES to get food stamps with a lie that seems most truthful: I got fired and am couch suffing!
WTF PEOPLE!!!
- photographer
- file keeper
- Photo editor
- idk what you would call the person that puts everything together online but that person
together that equivalent to five jobs... kinda.
to break it down:
$1,000/month =$250/week=$35.71(4285)/day
$50=20% of my weeks pay
BUT NONE OF THIS MATTERS IF I WORK SALARY!
Minimum wage as of today= $7.35
my pay per hour= $1.49
(and although i get 10% commission i have to put ALL these rugs up before i can market them... this will take months. At least two...)
EVIL EVIL PEOPLE!!!!!!!!
my expenses: $125-$100/week just for rent
$60 for food
$14 for bus fare
$15 for laundry
totaling= $214
not to mention:
$50/month for my cell phone
and hygiene products, and random expenses......
Leaving me with nothing left over to save up for a computer in which i desperatley need!!
All of this is important because I wasn't in work for three days straight one day I called off, the next we where closed and the day afterward i was extremely ill (NOT HUNG OVER.... I come into work and throw up in the toilet there when I am hung over). If you do the math, (which I should have to) even if i had only worked three days it would equal 107$. Im not a day laborer, If i wanted this crap I would still be at Mcdonalds (working the same hours and getting paid about the same without feeling this low about myself and my work)
When i was first hired I was working 15 hours a week and when the schedule changed I figured it was only fair for a salary job. Then i worked as hard as I could only to get critiqued on work. My boss hadn't even seen the site yet but, still asked for me to (not double but) triple my work load.
So i tried to maneuver around his slow ass computer and i learned stupid gimp. I finally was able to go from 10 a day to 20, best attempt. Attempt two was me buying (from the little bit of extra money i had) a jump drive and taking my work home with me. My work went at least 4 times faster, until i recognized one of the rugs and i started balling my eyes out because i had already cropped these pictures. Not only that but the folder was named incorrectly leading me to believe that I had copied the same pictures into a different folder. So even though i was making great progress it was only a step backwards.
Now all i can do is grit my teeth and work for people that don't appreciate me and won't pay me (even though we had an agreement... and i quote "I'll pay $1,000/ month so you can eat and stuff". Way to make your employee skinny and homeless) Im not extremely worried about the effects of not having the rent money and my friends and mother will make sure I'm fed but I don't feel I have any kind of job security at all. I am looking for a second job as we speek and am heading over to DES to get food stamps with a lie that seems most truthful: I got fired and am couch suffing!
WTF PEOPLE!!!
i've been dreaming again... thank the sky boss!!!!
dream number one had quilt patched mountains that i dearly longed to see (i believe this was bisbee) and a lizard that was green and orange that talked and got away from me. I was actually kinda scared of this lizard!
second dream was a party Kyla put on at the foster home It was big and bad and in the front yard while johanna was home. There was chica and me and her and her best friend shawna. at the end of the dream i watched from the second story window as shawna stumbled off the lawn with a hair blower. I just remeber thinking why do i have to go to highschool; again if i already been to college.
NEVER MIND THE MEANINGS BUT I WOKE UP BOTH DAYS IN TERRIBLY GREAT MOODS. THOSE KINDA MOODS IN WHICH KYLA (AND ALL OTHER FOSTER GIRLS) ALWAYS HATED....
YEAY!!!!!!!
dream number one had quilt patched mountains that i dearly longed to see (i believe this was bisbee) and a lizard that was green and orange that talked and got away from me. I was actually kinda scared of this lizard!
second dream was a party Kyla put on at the foster home It was big and bad and in the front yard while johanna was home. There was chica and me and her and her best friend shawna. at the end of the dream i watched from the second story window as shawna stumbled off the lawn with a hair blower. I just remeber thinking why do i have to go to highschool; again if i already been to college.
NEVER MIND THE MEANINGS BUT I WOKE UP BOTH DAYS IN TERRIBLY GREAT MOODS. THOSE KINDA MOODS IN WHICH KYLA (AND ALL OTHER FOSTER GIRLS) ALWAYS HATED....
YEAY!!!!!!!
9.27.2011
thru??
you say that im your only. you say that your just soley trying to just do you.
i can't figure you words out but to me your actions seem so true
i feel it when you hold, and you dont try to control me
and you always drag me back when i say im thru
but the people around me say your a mental screw
never to me i always go to you...
i can't figure you words out but to me your actions seem so true
i feel it when you hold, and you dont try to control me
and you always drag me back when i say im thru
but the people around me say your a mental screw
never to me i always go to you...
9.25.2011
so I'd like you're.company
he says so I'd like you're.company, but all this trying fill full again suddenly empties
what am i expected to do. what does he want to put me thru
but im weak and i find strength in his even with that i don't need him to assist......
i just need him there when no one else is. yet i still find my self with this wish of his kiss
what am i expected to do. what does he want to put me thru
but im weak and i find strength in his even with that i don't need him to assist......
i just need him there when no one else is. yet i still find my self with this wish of his kiss
9.23.2011
2007poems:tru
late december arrives in may
bleed in dark until that day
hold in deep await my kiss
i dont hear wat you say
dont tell me what ill miss
frozen hearts tell cold lies
porclian dolls are the alibies
you only know whats really true
you know who I despies
only because it's mostly you
bleed in dark until that day
hold in deep await my kiss
i dont hear wat you say
dont tell me what ill miss
frozen hearts tell cold lies
porclian dolls are the alibies
you only know whats really true
you know who I despies
only because it's mostly you
2007poems:??
falling thru the hole... the one that i can't see
seeing what can't possibly be me
No monsters, No blood, a horror just the same
to fall asleep tonight means I play this game
reliving the moment I knew not to love
seeing what all them see, all them up above
the angels, those eyes, the colors, the spite
if you only knew what i saw tonight
the demons, the blood, the fear i know now
i wish i could show you, i just don't know how
seeing what can't possibly be me
No monsters, No blood, a horror just the same
to fall asleep tonight means I play this game
reliving the moment I knew not to love
seeing what all them see, all them up above
the angels, those eyes, the colors, the spite
if you only knew what i saw tonight
the demons, the blood, the fear i know now
i wish i could show you, i just don't know how
2007poems: MEMORIES
Memmories kreep and burn my skin
memmories from deep down within
thier haunting streak like a ghost
it takes me where i hate the most
they burn and hurt and scrotch my soul
they are why I'll never seem whole
for seconds I appear happy and alive
but it disappears and i take that dive
"hush" says my heart to my hurt inside
"hush" find a place i can easily hide
but the memories haunt me like a ghost
and takes me where i hate the most
so cold and dark and wrapped in pain
for happines its no easy gain
so hurt and bruised and tortured see
I wish my soul would sleep so i can be
but for now i have to deal these memories out!
memmories from deep down within
thier haunting streak like a ghost
it takes me where i hate the most
they burn and hurt and scrotch my soul
they are why I'll never seem whole
for seconds I appear happy and alive
but it disappears and i take that dive
"hush" says my heart to my hurt inside
"hush" find a place i can easily hide
but the memories haunt me like a ghost
and takes me where i hate the most
so cold and dark and wrapped in pain
for happines its no easy gain
so hurt and bruised and tortured see
I wish my soul would sleep so i can be
but for now i have to deal these memories out!
DAMN I WAS AN EMO KID!!!!!!!!!!
but im done
all i do is want. but hoping for something is all that i got. its no kinda day without the dreaming. but what kinda of dream has this kind of meaning. And i know that dreams can be fleeting.... yet your not gone you didn't disappear. your simply standing right over here. but you don't want to hear.... and i guess that you don't fear- at least not about loosing me. i cant seem to work out how this came to be. was it as good for you as it was for me? i think i know now it was one sided and im no warrior so I'm done trying to fight it. to prove my worth because i thought you were worthy. im too spazy im too nervy... you don't have to fix so don't you worry. im not broken but a bit bruised. It's something im quite used to. Plus im not see-thru. and those vices you see are yours shining thru. try to connivence myself that all i needed was your help. i don't need you close in fact i prefer you far. Ill idolize you like your some super star. you provided the art that was up to par. wanting you was worse than my man behind bars. So im walking away before my heart get more scars. Your never near, your closer to mars. Off in your head, off in the clouds. I'd tell of my intent but i can't say it that loud. i can really say it at all. or throw you a text or give you a call. im just to scared that im your nothing at all. or even worse a cracked porcelain doll you took upon yourself to nurse back to health... maybe to prove you could still love. what ever the reason your still well thought of...
but im done
but im done
 |
| tear not tear.... |
9.22.2011
yesterday... (don't like it yet)
back in the attic of your addicted mind
there is a place so pure i want to find
but i could never call it mine, it was always her day
not a place for me to stay
no room for me to play
but honestly i'd pay to go back with you
into yesterday
in my memory love has frayed
and like the thread it fades away
landing on any island loves cast away
my hide away is in your today
love was such a easy thing to say
now i see it all as grey
counting on you seems to cliche
but tomorrow it will be through
and your crutch went astray
anyway you were my pathway
i'd be thinking of us and yesterday
9.20.2011
Breathe in Breathe out Breathe in Breathe out
There are days where not having a computer really gets under my skin... like yesterday. I should have got the three articles done yesterday. I should have gathered all the random ass pictures for my underage article and handed them over to gregg. I should have at least done one productive thing but no i just fucked off like I'm so good at. I watched Youtube videos all day (thanks Preston.... no i really mean that).
Yesterday I thought of being content compared to going after something you truly want/need {need being something that would benefit "you" in the long run}. I thought of money and how i don't have enough to save and live. I also had a very long debate on wether on not to tell my boss that i worked myself too hard the last few weeks and how unreasonable he is being expecting even more out of me. Also the lax-ness of how they are treating my pay... rawr.
O well, I keep working towards the things that I deserve (and would cherish). I have no idea how i used to be able to work at Mc Donald's and still afford fancy things. I guess I'm not my mom: I can't pull money out of a hat. Maybe if I hadn't moved into the more expensive room. Maybe if I try pushing the online rugs I could then afford to not stress so much.
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
*stands up and leaves computer to desperately search for clean agua*
Yesterday I thought of being content compared to going after something you truly want/need {need being something that would benefit "you" in the long run}. I thought of money and how i don't have enough to save and live. I also had a very long debate on wether on not to tell my boss that i worked myself too hard the last few weeks and how unreasonable he is being expecting even more out of me. Also the lax-ness of how they are treating my pay... rawr.
O well, I keep working towards the things that I deserve (and would cherish). I have no idea how i used to be able to work at Mc Donald's and still afford fancy things. I guess I'm not my mom: I can't pull money out of a hat. Maybe if I hadn't moved into the more expensive room. Maybe if I try pushing the online rugs I could then afford to not stress so much.
Breathe in
Breathe out
Breathe in
Breathe out
*stands up and leaves computer to desperately search for clean agua*
9.19.2011
WOC
The
brightest blue eyes i'd ever see
happen
to belong to me
And
when i look inside myself
i
find blue but not much else
"White
walls + hollow eyes
cold
feet to my suprise
finding
time to disect myself
i
found blue but not much else"
When
i walk the streets alone
my
mind often ponders home
homelessness
and when to eat
then
the blue my eyes do
"White
walls + hollow eyes
cold
feet to my suprise
finding
time to disect myself
i
found blue but not much else"
Daisies
and iscilces
shallow
waters
that
wont feel cold
daises
and isicles
when
did souls get that old
The
slighest lies i'd ever keep
just
so happens follow me
and
when i abide myself
i
find they're lies but not much else
"White
walls + hollow eyes
cold
feet to my suprise
finding
time to disect myself
i
found blue but not much else"
9.18.2011
I HAVE STALKERS
i guess the reason my views have been slowly rising even though i havent been sharing my blog on facebook because i have a staklker. It has been confirmed.... it's like a secret mission. One of the stalkers got stalker B to friend me on FB and then block me but im cooler than that.... hahahha i feel famous....
They said (and this is from the little birdie that i heard it from) that its like being on a psychodelic ( idont know if i spelt that right?)
They said (and this is from the little birdie that i heard it from) that its like being on a psychodelic ( idont know if i spelt that right?)
9.17.2011
Notes: hill Billy Bo, Endless Pursuit, Hopheads and Rehab @ The Rock
key:
my thought
peoples talk
personal shit
Hill billy bo:" The great great grandfather of Hill billy Bo & the great great grandmother of rehab is both Danielle Boone" i just realized this doesn't make any sense! They had a damn different sound than what i had expected. When i asked for a second or even third opinion i was told South West Rock, Crossover and other. I consider them hardcore souls with country lives.
Outside i talked to Bo about if i had the chance to see Rehab for five seconds what i would say. It wasn't that thrilling of a conversation but the chit chat afterward was bomb.
Endless Pursuit:
At first glance you might have assumed them Ska, at second glance you'd think your assumptions where correct and at third glance you would take it all in and realize this band was a bit "crossover" (as my "date" would like to say). On the spectrum i believe they would fall closer to punk. I don't like Ska much but i enjoyed them. They had plastic see-thru guard things around two mic stands. Which included two sticky notes :
"LIKE US..."
"on Facebook" (damn Facebook is taking over the world).
HopHeads:
Going of the pre conceived notion that Bryan Tuckers solo stuff i had seen about a week before at the breakfast club would be anything like his band's stuff, my thoughts exactly where "they have to be good". My assumption wasn't wrong but it was right either. They sounded nothing like Bryan's own individual stuff. Country-Punk at its best... That's of course if i have ever known any (and maybe barely skimming rock a billy) ! The one sound i picked out the cumulation of sound was the bassists' guitar like sound and how well he and the guitarist's sound was so well matched (it was almost hard to pick out.... thank god i was less than a foot away)
The Hopheads had a tight "music" bond which is distinguishable from the normal "family like" bond (cuz even family can sound horrible). They connected thru their music without trying to hard to do so.
Bryan was yet again wearing what i now know to be his "signature" hat (that i can recognize from a mile away). Even though i kept hearing their name (i have a lot of Ska loving Friends) I didn't expect them to be so hoppy.
They told this story: This is about how Yuma got it's name. back in the gun slinging, shoot up days. Two men are sitting in a pub. One says "It looks like this town is gonna stick around for a while, what should we name it". The other man says "Who ever dies first today we'll use their last words" So at high noon someone got shot and his last words were "You ma-"!
Rehab:
in between bands i went outside for fresh air and to find my fellow drunkards. THANK THE SKY BOSS for FROG's TIP OFF because he pointed to the group of people i just pasted (with absolutely no hint of interest) and told me it was rehab. I talked to them long enough to insult them and ask a few questions. I hope i made amends but i'm not promising anything. You see i've never spoke with someone with a deep georgia accent and i didn't believe it was real (THANK YOU ANY ASSHOLE OUT THERE THAT HAS FUCK WITH THIS NEW GIRL... i blame you for my untrusting behavior).
*have all of you stayed sober since together?
"Some have some haven't"
*is that the truth? (let's just add some more insult Kat)
"Always, why would i lie?"
*What do u think of tucson?
"The UofA is a crazy university, especially those cheerleaders"(this made me laugh and say bye)
They started off with an acoustic set. It's was like going to church in a cathedral. Looking up and hearing this angelic sound while looking around and realizing we (the people) all had this deep connection to something more than just ourselves. They where the preachers and we where their congregations.... can i get an amen??
For their real Rehab set i was standing next to Kira who was wearing a shirt which read "I ♥ Rehab" i found this both amusing and ironic. You should have seen the shine in their eyes as they saw Rehab play. Like children on Xmas morning looking at their beautiful present under the tree. The stage rumbled with this bass that could kill a small animal, so i kept my hand on stage just to gauge. i couldn't feel my hand after awhile. One song in particular was based off a Billy Carlson song "beer drinking song" and they played their version. Eventually, even though the show rocked, the bass flooded my senses and i had to flee for a not so "moving" performance. ( i wish i brought my ear plugs). Nearing the end fans where singing along to every word and calling out requests ( and im not talking one song over and over: That's just annoying! There where at least 5 different distinct song titles).
FYI The magical part about this show is it's almost a year since i have been off drugs. While i was in my own personal rehab i was listening to rehab. This show kinda was my present to myself for how strong i have been during this whole thing and am still being. Also the coincidences that happened in the days before this show made me seek out a friend i was too embarrassed to find before. I really want to say thank you to anyone that has been here for me and helped me stay strong. THANK YOU i couldn't have done it without you guys. Now if only i could these damn rumors to go away =]
9.16.2011
fb stalker
its so sad that i can not be myself and was accused of FB stalking... i know im fb happy but my life depends on it... i wanted to like a post and promised i wouldn't =[
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EvErYtHinG REHAB
Find more songs like REHAB at Myspace Music
from "The Story of Rehab" from their website!
It is all in name, but in fact, the name is relevant to the original members as they met in a rehab facility overcoming addictions to drugs and alcohol. It was here their love of music resonated and they became known quickly as the southern hip-hoppers taking Georgia by storm. In September 2010, these warriors are releasing Welcome Home on Universal Republic. No one can explain that feeling better than this group of guys that have traveled the road of highs and lows that have made them the ‘brothers’ they have become today.
Around a decade ago, three Georgia boys - Danny Alexander, aka, Danny Boone and a few others formed the group REHAB. Anchored by their influence of all things hip-hop, from Run DMC and NWA to a Tribe Called Quest and more, they set out on their own musical journey taking their first release “To Whom It May Consume” straight to the streets to sell to their newly garnered hard core fans.
Soon after this release Epic Records caught on and signed the group as one of the founders entered a long term rehab. “Southern Discomfort” was released sans Steaknife, but REHAB didn’t miss a beat with the melodic flavor and hard core rap styling of Danny Boone. After a strong US tour with such acts as Linkin Park, and many units sold, a new direction set forth.
Due to the ubiquitous “creative differences” stance, the band broke up. After writing and recording many songs on his own, lead singer Danny Boone bought the REHAB trademark and set out to revamp the group. Boone made additions to that are still going strong today with Hano Leathers on bass, Mike Hartnett on lead guitar, Fazel Syed, aka Foz on rhythm guitar and Christopher Hood on drums. With some guidance of producer Billy Hume and mix master Phil Tan, the band released “Graffiti the World” independently and toured extensively for nearly three years in an attempt to rebuild the name. During this tour, Demun Jones, DJ Chris Crisis and Lamar Williams joined the REHAB machine.
In 2008, Universal Records signed REHAB and immediately re-released “Graffiti the World” with a few new songs and supporting a non-stop tour and date with with kindred spirits, Kid Rock and Uncle Kracker. Adding collaborations with Bone Crusher and the legendary Hank Williams, Jr. provided a truly eclectic flavor to the disc and later resulted in a CMT Music Awards nomination for Wide Open Country Video of the Year for the multi-platinum selling single “The Bartender Song,” as well as a spot on Rolling Stone magazine’s “Hot List.”
With the September release of Welcome Home, the guys work with producers Billy Hume and Dallas Austin. The release is full of well-crafted tunes by the group and offers a nice slice of southern rock, country and the staple hip-hop that inspired the group. In today’s blurred genre game, REHAB fits the mold perfectly. With over 2 million downloads and over 300,000 units moved over the past few years, Welcome Home is poised to fit onto anyone’s playlist. Mix it up with REHAB, they have and it is a winner
9.15.2011
DON MARTIN IS A GURU!!!
Don Martin
Katita Eclipse Buckingham - a CD review is very hard to do correctly. I recently spent a few hours with a friend who writes them for a living discussing it. He said they had to be about 50% subjective and 50% objective. The subjective part is easy for most writers - it's just how they reacted to the music. But it can't be things like " I really liked it." There is no detail there except an opinion. It has to be things like "I enjoyed the song "Mother" because it reminded me of a trip to California I took with my mother in 1997."
The objective part is much harder. It requires an extensive knowledge of music. You say things like "Her voice reminded me of the early Janis Joplin" and "The string arraignment seemed like a modern Mozart." Then you have to present some facts to back your statements. You also need to have enough musical training to make informed comments on the abilities of the musicians, and the quality of the songwriting.
My friend said the mistake new writers make is their reviews are almost always subjective. Nothing objective. And if it is written and technical analysis is meaningless. Saying "Johnny really shreded the guitar" means nothing. A good CD reviewer will write something like "Johnny's repeated use of the four-fingered 3-4 overhand jumpback, one of the hardest chord progressions to learn, was impressive."
I don't know know nearly enough about it, so I avoid them
The objective part is much harder. It requires an extensive knowledge of music. You say things like "Her voice reminded me of the early Janis Joplin" and "The string arraignment seemed like a modern Mozart." Then you have to present some facts to back your statements. You also need to have enough musical training to make informed comments on the abilities of the musicians, and the quality of the songwriting.
My friend said the mistake new writers make is their reviews are almost always subjective. Nothing objective. And if it is written and technical analysis is meaningless. Saying "Johnny really shreded the guitar" means nothing. A good CD reviewer will write something like "Johnny's repeated use of the four-fingered 3-4 overhand jumpback, one of the hardest chord progressions to learn, was impressive."
I don't know know nearly enough about it, so I avoid them
"Music Trooper"
7:30 Che's to find Gregg
8:45 Club Congress for Trevor Hall {inwhich my name was on the guest list}
9:07 The District for the special of a beer and a shot...yeayz!!
9:10 Finding Clarity @ Skrappy's (where i also re-met the co-owner Kathy... Thank the sky boss that she is either over the whole "BIG" interview or has forgotten it)
10:20 Pozer @ Malloney's (i sung pozer-okee and well, preston says i should have won... but the person with the biggest breast won naturally)
11:53 I only caught Forrest Fallows @ The Red Room Where i saw Mallarky and am now going to the Monster pussy "Tails of the City" Show @ Solar culture Sept. 30th.
There's my night for yah for anyone who's asking!!!! :D
8:45 Club Congress for Trevor Hall {inwhich my name was on the guest list}
9:07 The District for the special of a beer and a shot...yeayz!!
9:10 Finding Clarity @ Skrappy's (where i also re-met the co-owner Kathy... Thank the sky boss that she is either over the whole "BIG" interview or has forgotten it)
10:20 Pozer @ Malloney's (i sung pozer-okee and well, preston says i should have won... but the person with the biggest breast won naturally)
11:53 I only caught Forrest Fallows @ The Red Room Where i saw Mallarky and am now going to the Monster pussy "Tails of the City" Show @ Solar culture Sept. 30th.
There's my night for yah for anyone who's asking!!!! :D
9.14.2011
9.13.2011
dream meaning please!
i keep having many dreams about searching through a house i dont know what it means
To see the floor in your dream, represents your support system and
sense of security. You have a firm foundation that you can depend on. The floor
in your dream may also symbolize the division between the unconscious and
conscious. Alternatively, the dream may be a pun on being "floored" or being
completely surprised. Perhaps you have been caught off guard about
something.
To see a polished, wooden floor in your dream, indicates that you are
fully aware of your unconscious and keeping it suppressed.
To see a slanted floor in your dream, foretells that you are
deviating too far from your original plans and goals.
To dream about the floors of a building, represents your level of
understanding, awareness or success. the higher floors signify higher
accomplishments and achievements. If you are in the lower floors, then it refers
to more primal attitudes, the unconscious and/or sexuality. It also denotes
failures. Consider the significance of the floor number and the type of building
the floors are on. TOP
To see a hallway in your dream, symbolizes self exploration. It is
the beginning of the path that you are taking in life. You are going through a
transitional phase and journeying into the unknown. It also signals spiritual
enlightenment, emotional growth physical prowess, new opportunities and mental
passages in your life. TOP
To
see your home in your dream, signifies security, basic needs, and values. You
may be feeling at " home" or settled at your new job or
environment. Alternatively, the dream represents your basic needs and
priorities.
In
particular, to see your childhood home, your hometown, or a home that you
previously lived in, indicates your own desires for building a family or your
beliefs about home. It also reflects aspects of yourself that were prominent or
developed during the time you lived in that home. You may experience some
unfinished feelings that were now being triggered by a waking situation.
Alternatively, the dream may symbolize your outdated thinking.
To
dream that you cannot find your way home, indicates that you have lost faith and
belief in yourself. It may also signify a major transition in your life. TOP
To
see a house in your dream, represents your own soul and self. Specific rooms in
the house indicate a specific aspect of your psyche. In general, the attic
represents your intellect, the basement represents the unconscious, etc. If the
house is empty, then it indicates feelings of insecurity. If the house is
shifting, then it suggests that you are going through some personal changes and
changing your belief system. To dream that a house has no walls, represents a
lack of privacy. You feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in
your business.
To
dream that you are cleaning your house, signifies your need to clear out your
thoughts and get rid of old ways. You are seeking self-improvement.
If
you live with others in your waking life, but dream that you are living alone,
suggests that you need to take new steps toward independence. You need to accept
responsibilities and be more self-reliant.
To
see an old, run-down house in your dream, represents your old beliefs, attitudes
and how you used to think or feel. A situation in your current life may be
bringing about those same old attitudes and feelings. Alternatively, the old
house may symbolize your need to update you mode of thinking. To dream that your
house is damaged, indicates your waking concerns about the condition of your
house.
To
see a new house in your dream, indicates that you are entering into a new phase
or new area in your life. You are
becoming more emotionally mature. If you
are locked out of the house, then it represents rejection and insecurity. You
feel you are being left behind.
To
dream that your house is broken into, suggests that you are feeling violated. It
may refer to a particular relationship or current situation in your life.
Alternatively, it indicates that some unconscious material is attempting to make
itself known. There are some aspects of yourself that you have denied.
To
dream of a haunted house, signifies unfinished emotional business, related to
your childhood family, dead relatives, or repressed memories and
feelings.
To dream that a house has
disappeared, indicates that you are not feeling grounded. You feel uprooted by
a particular circumstance or relationship in your life. meanings by DreamMoods.com
To
dream that water is rising up in your house, suggests that you are becoming
overwhelmed by your emotions.
**See The Meaning In Action: "Haunted
House". Please See Also Room.
To discover secret passageways in your dream, parallel to something new and/or exciting that is occurring in your waking life. It
refers to a new opportunity, a new relationship, or a new attitude toward life.
If you wake up before fully exploring these passageways, then it suggest that
you may not know how to take advantage of these opportunities or how to move
forward with a relationship. Perhaps the newness and uncertainty of this discovery also makes you a
little more cautious. Overall, this is a positive dream. TOP
To
dream that you are walking up a flight of stairs, indicate that you are
achieving a higher level of understanding. You are making progress into your
spiritual, emotional or material journey. The dream is also analogous to
material and thoughts that are coming to the surface.
To
dream that you are walking down a flight of stairs, represents your repressed
thoughts. You are regressing back into your unconscious. It also refers to the
setbacks that you are experiencing in your life. If you are afraid of going down
the stairs, then it means that you are afraid to confront your repressed
emotions and thoughts. Is there something from your past that you are not
acknowledging?
To
dream that you slip or trip on the stairs, signify your lack of self confidence
or conviction in the pursuit of some endeavor. If you slip going up the stairs,
then it means that you are moving too fast toward attaining your goals. If you
slip going down the stairs, then it suggests that you are moving too quickly in
delving into your unconscious. You may not be quite ready to confront your
unconscious or repressed thoughts.
To
see spiral or winding stairs, signify growth and/or rebirth.
**See The Meaning In Action: "Up The
Staircase" TOP
To see a wall in your dream, signifies limitations. obstacles and
boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. You may be too
accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking.
To dream that you jump over a wall, suggests that you will overcome
tough obstacles and succeed.
To dream that you demolish or break down a wall, indicates that you
are breaking through obstacles and overcoming your limitations. If you see a
wall crumble, then it suggests that you have easily risen above your problems
and overcame your barriers.
To dream that you are building a wall, represents a bad relationship
or some childhood trauma. You are trying to keep others out for fear of getting
hurt again. It also suggest that you have accepted your limitations.
To dream that you are hiding behind a wall, suggests that you ashamed
in acknowledging your connections.
To dream that you are being thrown or shot through a wall, literally
means that you need to breakdown those walls that you have put up around you.
You need to venture out and explore.
To dream that a house has no walls, represents a lack of privacy. You
feel that everyone is looking over your shoulder or up in your
business. TOP
Searching
Hunting for a misplaced item is frustrating. However, discovery can be a pleasant reward. The key to analysing dreams about searching is to focus on whether the dream ends with the object or person being found or not.
If the dream resolves itself, it is important to note what or who you were looking for, and how those things were found. Think about the relationship that exists between the object and who (if anyone) helped you find it. Commonly, the thing that is lost in the dream reflects an area of life where we are feeling incomplete or ineffective. Finding it in partnership with others may be a cue to seek outside wisdom in the resolution of the circumstances.
A 48-year-old man reports dreaming: I am looking for my car keys. They are nowhere to be found. I am turning the house upside down, shouting at my wife, and generally coming unglued. My daughter is out, and I begin to blame her. A friend of hers comes in and says I should look in the front door. I do. My keys are there.
This searching dream is interesting because the man reported throughout counselling how anxious he was concerning his daughter's driving. The loss of control he was feeling in his daughter's life consumed much of his emotional energy. After this dream, he realized that much of the home conflict he was experiencing came from his own anxiety more than actual defiance on the part of his daughter. The insight produced from the dream resulted in a much more peaceable home life for everyone involved.
In an unresolved dream of searching, the dream often illustrates the need to find resolution of an emotional trauma. The unresolved search can be for an object or a person.
Some common versions of the person dream include the crying baby that cannot be found, chasing a runaway whom you cannot locate, or receiving a message that cannot be returned. These dreams may occur in periods of extended grieving.
Another unresolved search scenario is the unfound place or item. For example, you may have a map in a dream that leads nowhere. Or perhaps you simply lose an object by setting it on the table. Dreams of this nature can give tremendous insight into the goals of your life and how effectively you are realising them.
Source: iVillage, http://www.ivillage.co.uk
If you are running in your dream, in order to interpret you need to consider are you running away from someone or something, or are you just running like jogging. Normal running means you are on the right road. If you have difficulty running it can mean helplessness, being held back by negative feelings, feeling rundown or out of steam.
Running away can be related to avoidance; issues of responsibility; guilt; new strength to avoid what is negative for you. If you are pursued see pursued.
Running toward some person or object may refer to ambitions or goals; willingness to undertake responsibility; a positive attitude. If a negative goal or situation it may refer to situations such as addictive or codependent ones, to which you are inevitably drawn even though the results may be disastrous. Has someone you depend on recently run out on you?
Running away can be related to avoidance; issues of responsibility; guilt; new strength to avoid what is negative for you. If you are pursued see pursued.
Running toward some person or object may refer to ambitions or goals; willingness to undertake responsibility; a positive attitude. If a negative goal or situation it may refer to situations such as addictive or codependent ones, to which you are inevitably drawn even though the results may be disastrous. Has someone you depend on recently run out on you?
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