but im done

all i do is want. but hoping for something is all that i got.  its no kinda day without the dreaming. but what kinda of dream has this kind of meaning. And i know that dreams can be fleeting.... yet your not gone  you didn't disappear. your simply standing right over here. but you don't want to hear.... and i guess that you don't fear- at least not about loosing me. i cant seem to work out how this came to be. was it as good for you as it was for me? i think i know now it was one sided and im no warrior so I'm done trying to fight it. to prove my worth because i thought you were worthy. im too spazy im too nervy... you don't have to fix so don't you worry. im not broken but a bit bruised. It's something im quite used to. Plus im not see-thru. and those vices you see are yours shining thru. try to connivence myself that all i needed was your help. i don't need you close in fact i prefer you far. Ill idolize you like your some super star. you provided the art that was up to par. wanting you was worse than my man behind bars. So im walking away before my heart get more scars. Your never near, your closer to mars.  Off in your head, off in the clouds. I'd tell of my intent but i can't say it that loud. i can really say it at all. or throw you a text or give you a call. im just to scared that im your nothing at all. or even worse a cracked porcelain doll you took upon yourself to nurse back to health... maybe to prove you could still love. what ever the reason your still well thought of...


but im done

tear not tear....